Its almost a month, when you think about it, school will eventually start again. What left is the time to be spend. I have made many plans for this holidays, but most of the time ,my plans change. But my goal are clear and i am still on my schedule.
We are not always in control of the things that happened around us but as long as we know where we are heading then it is fine . i never plan to go to Kedah for this holiday, but being part of the family makes it okay since it will be about spending time with them.
i however missed my friends now, sometimes i even have dream hanging out with them. Last night as i look at my phone and browse through the numbers , i kind of feel like i wanted to call them. Well maybe i'll wait a little longer, i said to myself. We of all the people have change, even though we known for quite a while that does not mean that we know that person thoroughly.
When i play the event that happened to Charlie, i kind of think that maybe she has change. After years of knowing each other, we still change. I remembered the days when all of us were singles, those were the days. We would karaoke, do picnics when ever we feel like it, even skip class just to go out for a movie.
I know that all these are excuses, but when people change it is us that have to decide whether we are going to be close anymore. Don't get me wrong, my friendship will never end, it is just how deep the relationship will be. Its the memories that makes it matters. i actually have five best friends. But like i said people change.
When we started going to colleges, first we thought that we will always stay the same. Then unexpected things happen, in a way its life. What used to be difficult now it is not. First feeling of freedom makes everything go wild, in a way its like a test that we will have to take. This will be the time for one to experiment with life, most of my girlfriends seem to over do it. Well even i do it too.
Some are lucky as the things they do will only be temporary, but some may never be the same person they used to be. Do you know that when we pretend most of the time being someone we are not, we eventually do be that that person? this is actually true. Actions will eventually define who we are.
Think about it, people who do drugs, at first they never do it because they are addicted to it, they just wanted to try, and for some it will make them look cool and open minded to their peers. The thing about drugs is that you don't get hocked up on the first try, its the 6th time that made you addicted.
Don't you agree? And the saddest part is that no one would tell us that drugs comes in many form but they still do the same things to us. Love, interest and passion. In my opinion, those are like drugs . Love at first can be the most wonderful thing that can happen in a person, but when we are addicted to it, its hard to stay sober. I have seen and done things that in the name of love its okay, but i ended up regretting that i did them.
The truth is, when we do realise that we are going towards a different path, it is always too late. This is because by the time we are aware of the mistakes we do, we are already a change human being. We can still rebuild our self, but the journey will never be easy. Sadly some even relapse.
When i look at kids, i do wish to tell them that always remember not to stray from your dream. You may do crazy things but deep down be the same person you are, better still, be wiser. But i know that these will never work, as people will have to go and learn about life.
It is when we experienced life that we can say that this is who we are. But the question still remains, are we the person we want to be because we choose to be or because we failed to be?
i however missed my friends now, sometimes i even have dream hanging out with them. Last night as i look at my phone and browse through the numbers , i kind of feel like i wanted to call them. Well maybe i'll wait a little longer, i said to myself. We of all the people have change, even though we known for quite a while that does not mean that we know that person thoroughly.
When i play the event that happened to Charlie, i kind of think that maybe she has change. After years of knowing each other, we still change. I remembered the days when all of us were singles, those were the days. We would karaoke, do picnics when ever we feel like it, even skip class just to go out for a movie.
I know that all these are excuses, but when people change it is us that have to decide whether we are going to be close anymore. Don't get me wrong, my friendship will never end, it is just how deep the relationship will be. Its the memories that makes it matters. i actually have five best friends. But like i said people change.
When we started going to colleges, first we thought that we will always stay the same. Then unexpected things happen, in a way its life. What used to be difficult now it is not. First feeling of freedom makes everything go wild, in a way its like a test that we will have to take. This will be the time for one to experiment with life, most of my girlfriends seem to over do it. Well even i do it too.
Some are lucky as the things they do will only be temporary, but some may never be the same person they used to be. Do you know that when we pretend most of the time being someone we are not, we eventually do be that that person? this is actually true. Actions will eventually define who we are.
Think about it, people who do drugs, at first they never do it because they are addicted to it, they just wanted to try, and for some it will make them look cool and open minded to their peers. The thing about drugs is that you don't get hocked up on the first try, its the 6th time that made you addicted.
Don't you agree? And the saddest part is that no one would tell us that drugs comes in many form but they still do the same things to us. Love, interest and passion. In my opinion, those are like drugs . Love at first can be the most wonderful thing that can happen in a person, but when we are addicted to it, its hard to stay sober. I have seen and done things that in the name of love its okay, but i ended up regretting that i did them.
The truth is, when we do realise that we are going towards a different path, it is always too late. This is because by the time we are aware of the mistakes we do, we are already a change human being. We can still rebuild our self, but the journey will never be easy. Sadly some even relapse.
When i look at kids, i do wish to tell them that always remember not to stray from your dream. You may do crazy things but deep down be the same person you are, better still, be wiser. But i know that these will never work, as people will have to go and learn about life.
It is when we experienced life that we can say that this is who we are. But the question still remains, are we the person we want to be because we choose to be or because we failed to be?
this is a very sincere piece. it relates to most of us even to someone who is quite older such as i. moving.
ReplyDeletei think, n this is only a thinking, we are both the person we want and failed to be.
even if you remain as an anonymous i think i have a very good idea who you are. :P
ReplyDeleteanyway.. this piece is written not to justify which is better, being the person we want to be or the person we failed to be, instead its just about are we done in trying?