Paddy field

when i first saw you, i feel that this land in blessed.

as the journey continues and i can only see you, it gets boring.

then, as we travel further but only to find more of you, i am annoyed.


however, as i was force to see you more, i kind of feel peace and calm.

as we part saying our goodbye, i am starting to miss you.


i missed you kedah paddy field.

My experience in kedah

hey, i just got back from kedah, at 1 am last night.

i don't feel like sharing much about the trip. but here are some of the important details of the journey.

1. Kedah people aren't that different after all- here is how i got to realise that. It was Saturday morning, the whole family gathered to have breakfast. As we thought what better way to embrace Kedah then eating at the local shops, we skipped breakfast at hotel. i was so looking forward to what might amaze me, maybe something different. However, after an hour going round and round the town, we ended up having roti canai.
   
2. driving is tiring. the journey, even though i was not the driver was so damn exhausting . the green scenery was nice but at night it is too dark. so i did not enjoy of it too much. yeah not so adventures after all.
3. i can adapt well in snow country- staying in a hotel was really relaxing, i switched on the air conditioning to full blast for 24/7. Everyone was complaining about the cold but i made it sure it stays cold. My room was literally snowing in the morning.
4. prejudice of Malacca people- when we went to pekan rabu, i have tested the theory of sounding like the local Kedahian (i think this is what they call them. i think), well first we went to this carpet shop, mum wanted to get this buluh carpet so first we will talk like the normal KL people. the price was like 180 for 3X3 meter, but when we went to another carpet shop, using the kedah dialect, we got the price to reduce to 140. so you know what i mean then. yeah
   

so to wrap it all up, i enjoyed the trip in so many ways. :P

i actually have more to say but too tired now.

banzaaiii....

off to kedah..

Since i will be leaving to Kedah this weekend i think this will be my last post until i do get back home.

yea...

Kedah?


So miss me when i am gone.

Lotus flower

Have you ever seen a lotus ? Do you know at times this flower would actually blossom twice or even trice .? I have read from somewhere, with the right temperature, water condition this flower will actually show its beauty more than once in one season. Great right?

This flower have always been an inspiration in motivation stories. For some it is to tell that we shouldn't give up on what we want in life. Sometimes we might think that we have done the best, but when it still fails, we may think what is the point in continuing since i tried it and still i failed.

I'm not into motivation stories much, as sometimes i think that wishful thinking is not always the best way to do it. A friend told me" it wouldn't hurt right to be positive?". I don't think it would not hurt. The reason why being positive makes it easier is because we try to ignore the elephant in the room.

Let me explain the elephant in the room thing. Let say in your living room there is this elephant. This elephant being big have taken a massive amount of space. A positive thinker, always being happy with what is given would try to live with the elephant in the room. Perhaps they could make it look nice by covering it with curtains thinking that this might help them not notice the huge thing in front of them. Stupid right?

If you agree that its a dumb think to do, then let me ask you this. Don't you think being positive is exactly like that? What you should have done from the beginning was to take the elephant out of the living room. Well it is hard work but imagine the pleasure of having it outside the living room.

Denying the fact that we do have problem will not make it better. The problem will haunt you in a constant wave, and in worst condition it gets uglier.

The lotus my friend is not a positive think flower. If its a positive thinker it wouldn't mind being blossom only once. Its a flower that strive to be beautiful. In certain condition it fights to surprise us by blossoming more than once. This makes it on top all other flowers.

When we fall down, we can reclaim that success that was once ours. We can actually have better life by being better. Ask for more. Be the one person you have always imagine yourself to be.

Cheers

Vocabulary

Are you good with English words ?

you are?



really !!!! ?

Care to test ?

okay tell me what these words means and no looking in the dictionary.

kipidap , antena, beritbak , bialmins

, gutlak , nidhop

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any idea???


no!!?

ok i'll give you a second chance and you can look it up in any dictionary..

kipidap , antena, beritbak , bialmins

, gutlak , nidhop

what!!?

still don't have a clue.?

alright these are the answers.

keep it up,and then aa (chinese love to say this),be right back, by all means, good luck, need hope

still can't understand? this time try to read them aloud. use your ear.

kipidap = keep it up , antena = and then aa (chinese love to say this), beritbak=be right back,
,bialmins= by all means , gutlak = good luck , nidhop = need hope

get it?

ha ha ha

gotcha... :P~~~

sorry guys. i thought i want to spin a little make it interesting for you guys to read my blog. I actually didn't come up with those words, instead i found them in use while chatting with Malaysian people.

kind of cute seeing people using these to make short form.
what do you mean by "antena"? owh you mean and then aaa..

Its the truth. trust me.


happy birthday fiq.....

Blame the system.

Its empty now, no more gathering, no longer the house will be crowded with relatives. Well that is of cause until the next wedding or Hari Raya. Everyone is returning to the usual slow pace they should be.

Malacca has a phenomenon. On any given day, the road will be and stay empty but mysteriously on certain occasion for example weddings or Friday prayers the road will be filled with cars. Running to Malacca to escape traffic jam in Kuala Lumpur?, wrong again we do have traffic jams here. But I wonder where do the people hide during normal days.

Once the wedding was over, people will continue their routine as usual. No rushing, no hustle , no loud noise just a plain day. The last time i see people gathering near grandmother house was yesterday when they were dissembling the tent. That was it.

Grandmother house is also in affected by this phenomenon i think, no more lining up to the bathroom, no shouting "my turn..my turn" just grandmother and grandfather moving slowly. Dining time was rather quiet too, but my grandparents are okay with that. They certainly would love the company, but being on their own, they would not mind.

Its like they know what to do next. Visiting neighbours, tending their garden, or clean the house. Monday this and that, Tuesday other stuff and direct selling sale people. They really have it all figured out. I am ashamed by the fact that our generation these days are always bored because having nothing to do. shame on you and shame on me.

Time

Its almost a month, when you think about it, school will eventually start again. What left is the time to be spend. I have made many plans for this holidays, but most of the time ,my plans change. But my goal are clear and i am still on my schedule.

We are not always in control of the things that happened around us but as long as we know where we are heading then it is fine . i never plan to go to Kedah for this holiday, but being part of the family makes it okay since it will be about spending time with them.

i however missed my friends now, sometimes i even have dream hanging out with them. Last night as i look at my phone and browse through the numbers , i kind of feel like i wanted to call them. Well maybe i'll wait a little longer, i said to myself. We of all the people have change, even though we known for quite a while that does not mean that we know that person thoroughly.

When i play the event that happened to Charlie, i kind of think that maybe she has change. After years of knowing each other, we still change. I remembered the days when all of us were singles, those were the days. We would karaoke, do picnics when ever we feel like it, even skip class just to go out for a movie.

I know that all these are excuses, but when people change it is us that have to decide whether we are going to be close anymore. Don't get me wrong, my friendship will never end, it is just how deep the relationship will be. Its the memories that makes it matters. i actually have five best friends. But like i said people change.

When we started going to colleges, first we thought that we will always stay the same. Then unexpected things happen, in a way its life. What used to be difficult now it is not. First feeling of freedom makes everything go wild, in a way its like a test that we will have to take. This will be the time for one to experiment with life, most of my girlfriends seem to over do it. Well even i do it too.

Some are lucky as the things they do will only be temporary, but some may never be the same person they used to be. Do you know that when we pretend most of the time being someone we are not, we eventually do be that that person? this is actually true. Actions will eventually define who we are.

Think about it, people who do drugs, at first they never do it because they are addicted to it, they just wanted to try, and for some it will make them look cool and open minded to their peers. The thing about drugs is that you don't get hocked up on the first try, its the 6th time that made you addicted.

Don't you agree? And the saddest part is that no one would tell us that drugs comes in many form but they still do the same things to us. Love, interest and passion. In my opinion, those are like drugs . Love at first can be the most wonderful thing that can happen in a person, but when we are addicted to it, its hard to stay sober. I have seen and done things that in the name of love its okay, but i ended up regretting that i did them.

The truth is, when we do realise that we are going towards a different path, it is always too late. This is because by the time we are aware of the mistakes we do, we are already a change human being. We can still rebuild our self, but the journey will never be easy. Sadly some even relapse.

When i look at kids, i do wish to tell them that always remember not to stray from your dream. You may do crazy things but deep down be the same person you are, better still, be wiser. But i know that these will never work, as people will have to go and learn about life.

It is when we experienced life that we can say that this is who we are. But the question still remains, are we the person we want to be because we choose to be or because we failed to be?

this is what makes me proud.

Wan Aiman of JW Marriott Hotel Kuala Lumpur...

Proudly i can say that i have found a friend working as a chef (in the making) there. In my head i have been thinking how art relates to our life. Finally i have found a true Malaysian, who cooks with his heart and design with his imagination.

Gifted is the word i would describe him, putting art and taste on these food makes him a real life artist. Most of the time when i see people doing art, i felt that they have missed the part on how to put it practically in real life. For example the runway. They have design millions of dressing which i honestly think its cool and out of this world, but putting it in to the real life test, i can't imagine people wearing them without being looked like an idiot.

Food is also part of art, i think. Taste is the most important part of food, but we can't deny the fact that presentation is also a must. I have seen cakes which looks horrible but yet it tasted good. I guess talent in both taste and presentation can only be mastered through hard work. He has definitely mastered them.

let me share with you some of the magnificent pictures of food.

It will make your mouth watery..

Salmon with Cream Lemon Sauce



Chicken Pica-ta with Tomato Sauce

Vegetarian Western Food Onion Ring

Sea-bass with Capers Sauce

French Toast with Chocolate Sauce and Grill Potato



Shark Fin Soup



slow baked fish with Neapolitan sauce(tomato sauce)




cauliflower with butter herb sauce

chicken yakitori Japanese theme

canapes



kerabu taugeh



potato salad

mouth watering enough?? Have you ever wonder how people make these gorgeous food. They must have such an enchantment life.

Trust me all this food is made from hard work. Its not naturally born talent. i hope you will get what you dream for.

Keep up the good work.

:P~~

magic..it was just magical

My day started early . I made sure i would not have to line up to take turn using the bathroom. Oh. I almost forgot to tell you that we have like twenty people in the house and 3 bathroom, so you do the math how long the queue will be.

When i was out from the toilet, i stumble upon the newly wed coming out of their room. i was intrigued to know how my cousin would look this morning. She was rather smiling and being shy. Well that solve the puzzle of my curiosity. heh

Breakfast was fun. Having lots of people around makes it feel warm and filled with love. People would joke and talk by exchanging details of their personal life. Boboi, on the other hand, was a little bit western today, he wanted cornflakes for breakfast. Annoying since the menu was homemade cook nasi lemak.

Then, everything started to be in a rush, people were moving here and there. Kids were outside playing while the grownups were doing the task given for the wedding. As i am in charged of bunga telur, i didn't have much to do for now. Most of the time i will be in the hall welcoming guest and taking gift from neighbours and relatives.

Second cousin relative was here, i don't know them much as we do not hear from them often. Then an uncle (from the second cousin side) talked to me and asked how is my preparation for SPM. This proves how much they did not know about me.

The day was pretty pleasant, it wasn't raining like yesterday and everyone was having a great time. And a friend prediction was right about the guy who loves to karaoke (the man who would sing again and again since it was always his turn), we are related and he is my second uncle.

I also remembered my friend telling me that "If you do hear of any failing bunga telur girl doing her job, let me know" despite the pressure, no i did not fail being a bunga telur girl. I passed with flying colours.

Besides being the bunga telur girl, i also tried being helpful by serving food and drinks. At first i would pour drinks for the guest, then there was the opss.. spilled, so i ended up just leaving the jug on the table, refill only when its about to empty.

Everything ended well.

Oh, and one more thing, there was this one time when the kompang started to play and the bride and the groom was walking towards their sitting, there was this little girl crying. She was crying so loud, that she stole the guest attention from looking at the bride. yeah so loud.

The parent of the kid was trying to calm her down by giving her candies but she just would not stop. So i went to the kitchen looking for a chocolate, thinking that it might help. might.

But as soon as i got the chocolate and wanted to give it to the girl , she was already quiet and calm.

Guess what had happened?

No...no.. and no..

all your guesses are wrong.


Boboi was what happened to her. I don't know what he said to the girl, but it worked.

yeah.... magically worked


:P

Ooooo... you did not.just say that.

I am tired but i could not sleep. I am trying to imagine how the newly wed is feeling. They must be happy right? imagine that. Being bound to one another as legally they will always have one thing to honour , their marriage.

Sometimes this ceremony makes it look like its too superficial. When i say superficial, it is like putting on heavy make ups that makes it hard to imagine how the bride would look with out them. Everyone will adore the newly wed , giving blessing and complimenting on how they match. Match made from heaven they say.

For a westerner wedding there will be a part where the pair will have to exchange the "i do take this person to be my...." thing, but for this wedding, its all about the guys. The wali will be either the father or male relatives, then there is the groom. Normally,the bride will be there just sitting silently but still pretty for the wali and the groom to make akad nikah.

It is still wonderful to witness this event. My grandmother said that its a victory when they finally finished the akad nikah. They will have to respect one another, as one is completed by the other. Its no longer about being as an "I" but as a "we". That is the wisdom that brought grandfather and grandmother to stay together until today and now it is passed on to the next generation.

Once the akad nikah was over and people are done with eating, my uncle came to me and asked when my turn will be. I just smiled.

But boboi had to add by saying "but kak ina is troubled with cooking" .

kids............................... they say the darners thing.

ps: i did pinch boboi for saying that.

wink...wink....

open your eyes not blindly and see,
that this world is not so easy.
stop talking and now please listen,
that nothing can make you weaken.

stand up straight and tall,
Brave yourself through it all.
lift yourself and let it breach,
For everything is not out of reach.

let it roll and let it go,
as someday a stone may turn into gold.
dream hard and work hard,
For success comes with a gut.

trust yourself and open your heart,
as the quickest path is not a shortcut.
take the blow only with a fight,
because after darkness then comes the light.

smile when everything seems to end,
for every ending means a new life began.
let the scars bleed outside or within.
as what has to be learn is what lies in between.

wipe your tears or let it dry,
no one can live without having to die.
take your time and walk it slow,
for when the time comes you will shine and glow.


:)

boboi = sin chan

right now i would like to write about my dearest little cousin, boboi. he is only standard three but sometimes i wonder if he is thinking like one.

I tried to tease him when i asked how many girlfriends he has. He paused and started counting his fingers, trying to come up with a number. wow It is like the little version of Casanova. So i got interested to know how he meet them.

Before he started telling them one by one, i was forced to promise not to tell anyone. i need to assure him three times just to convince him. So he started to talk, the story was too long and there was definitely drama but as he is in standard three the drama revolve around school area and the playground. When he was about to tell about girl number four, he scoff and said "love is hard kak ina". i wanted to laugh but trying not to make fun of him , i kept it inside.

how could a kid this young have that way of thinking? one thing for sure he has been staying with grown-ups since he was small, having no other siblings made it difficult for him to act young. He is happy with whatever comes to him.

In his story,there was this one time he bought a flower, not to give to the girl he likes instead he gives it the the girl's best friend(which is also a girl). i was surprised as he was trying to make the girl he likes to be jealous that way. Hard to believe it right? Its like he knows how to play this game and he is good at it. scary.

when i asked him what he understood about love. He didn't answered. Maybe that wasn't the right question to ask a standard three kid. So i pheraphrase my question, trying to simplify it to his level. What do you feel when you play with your girlfriend? He smiled and answered "It was fun"

i suddenly realise that he was a kid afterall. He didn't tried to look for love to begin with. All that he wanted was to have someone to play with. But having those ideas on how to get girls, I don't think the idea was originally his. Someone must have put the idea in his head. Filling it with plans and tactics. But his true motive was just to have someone around.

Thats why, since i don't have a younger brother i consider him as mine. i sometimes indulge him with candies and toys just to make him feel like he have a sister.


:(

milk anyone?

Just right after lunch, a man in motorcycle came down to our place in Malacca. he was somehow introducing a new product. My grandmother still regard direct selling from house to house as part of her routine, so i planned to join in this time. what we will do is that we would sit and listen to the sales person presentation of how good the product is.

I was already sitting in the hall while waiting for grandmother change to a better clothing. In front of me was a drink served when we have people coming to the house. It was rather odd that grandmother served milk this time. Being supportive i told myself that maybe serving milk was part of this kampung tradition, so i drink up.

It tasted different from the usual milk there was this smell which i find it hard to distinguish. Goat milk? did grandmother add something to the milk? who knows . i am being supportive here. When i was about to finish the milk grandmother finally appears.

Being surprised to how much i drink she asked me how was the taste.

grandmother : how was the taste?

Again being supportive and in hope to compliment the drink.

me: it tasted okay. :-)

grandmother: owh so the horse milk wasn't bad?

me: what?? horse?

sales person: yeah its the new product. freshly took from the farm.

idiot. the joke was on me. The sales person knew that i wasn't going to taste the milk if i know that it was from a horse. No wonder he was silently sitting there while closely observing my reaction to the drink. And i thought i was being unfriendly.

so i am guessing the smell comes from a horse? . i even think that my burping smelt funny. i am going to brush my teeth now for the 5th time.

ps: no matter how wonderful the taste is you don't take a milk from a horse. Just wasn't meant to be.

when you believe...

the hardest of all things is when you want to achieve something that is impossible. i'm not good with cooking and i have been proven of lacking this skill ever since i have a friend who can actually cook. recently i made friends with this guy , he is not even a chef but he knows so much about food that it made me embarrassed being a girl. He works in a consulting firm in kl. Every single day he would cook for himself. Last night when i asked whether he have had dinner, he told me that he was going to "tumis" vegetable. Shock i was as I don't even know what tumis is.

Is it true that food is the key to a man's heart? if it is then why does this man can cook like he is cooking for someone else ? has the time change for it to be the man who cooks better than a women? My mum used to say that the greatest chef today belongs to the male group. With my undeveloped skill to cook just verify how time actually change. Well perhaps its just me.

This weekend my cousin is getting married. From Monday i have been worried if i am going to be in charge of the food. we will be having the wedding in kampung style so imagine the slicing onions, tumising and all the hard cooking stuff. i would just embarrassed my parent more. My wish came true i am in charge of bunga telur. All i have to do is to look good and not act like too boyish.

done and done.

the other day my little cousin which we called him "boboi" asked grandmama why not all girls can cook. he was actually referring at me but using the "all girls" quote was a clever move. yeah and you think this standard 3 year old boy would look adorable with whatever he says.

evil. evil. but he is still cute.

i am ok. hehehhe

hey guys thank you for being sensitive with me. i have been getting advices from you guys and i am thankful for that but i have to admit its still my fault. i shouldn't be in secure. where i am standing right now is far from good. losing friends one by one makes it so hard to be sane. how can i ever be in a relationship if i can't handle my friends? i am sure there is no short cuts for that.

i apologise to my friend for acting childish. i hope i can make an amend to him but i don't think i even deserve that chance. For being such a bitch without knowing the pain that you are going through. i should have listen more. Even at bad or good times i should have acted they best way i can.

when i said to most of my friends about being a good friends,i always did that to remind myself of how i should be. After what had happened i know now that i am way from the person i should be. i would have to pray and think hard from now on. giving excuses would not be good enough to mend a broken friendship.

i want to be the person i wish to be. for better or worse. i must think of how i should control my temper.

sorry again and thank you my fellow friends.

losing is hard,,,,,

maybe i should just forget about the past, move on. let the past be the past. i have never been like this. i am always the matured one.

Chelsea wins the season..!!!!!

the new layout is to celebrate Chelsea's win.... hehehhe i will be away for 2 weeks... this is my quick post in Cyber Cafe.

take care end enjoy your holidays...

i am sorry i judged you..

i have been keeping to myself that i saw charlie and his ex going out again. i actually kept this secret for a while as i don't really feel comfortable talking about it . i saw them being together right after the last day of exam. i felt angry as i thought i was betrayed by Charlie.

unconsciously, i have been repeating the event in my head over and over again thinking that i might be wrong that perhaps they are not back together but in denial they actually are . They don't seem being just friends.

charlie haven't filled me up on what happened, but i figured what happened doesn't really need explaining. They have been spotted in many places being friendly together. And i honestly think that Charlie didn't cared what my thought will be on that matter.

i am confused, am i not a trustworthy person? haven't i proved that by being there witnessing the occurred event. The wound is still open and yet somehow they managed to overlooked at it. This is the real reason for the earlier post i did about unsure.

Maybe after the call incident that happened that night gives them the impression that i may judge them. Perhaps i will, but taking account of what had happened , i don't think this will be a happy ending. People don't change overnight.

Charlie i care for you. So i will look at this blindly. If somehow you guys have resolve those issue then i am happy for both of you. I'm sorry that i have made it difficult for you to open up to me. I may have pressed the issue too hard on your boyfriend but i can assure you that i will be there when you ready for me. If however you choose not to share, i will still be your friend and not judge you at all.

i am sorry to have judged you and your boyfriend. You didn't betrayed my friendship if that is what you are feeling holding you back. You earned this much of a trust from me. I only hope for your happiness. i do.

Drama is part of life....

When i was a lot younger, i believe that love is the goal for everything. If i were in a relationship, i would want the best out of it. In my head, the best relationship would mean that I would be close to that person all the time. I would sms on and on for when i sms it feels kind of fulfilling inside me. I was the person who have to experience love every single day. It was nice for a moment but it destroys the fundamental of a relationship. yeah i was that person.

For some reason those feelings were like a drug to me. If you don't have it, its like the feeling of withdrawing drugs inside you. Its like constantly in need of the person saying i love you every minute of the day. For when he is away doing something i would feel like he doesn't love me that much anymore. When he talks to other women its like he is betraying my love for him.

In the end when we were broken up, i hated myself more . I now have different views about love. I have cleared myself form being that person, in a sense i have become sober. Its like the "aha" moment for me. But i have to say that without those past drama i might not realise it sooner. So now when i see friends having the same symptoms i know how it feels. I know that he/she will need the drama to wake up.

i guess that is when you will know that it is time to grow up and stand up. i know now that relationship is build on trust and it is earned through a period of time. Skipping the time will serve no good.

Did he just say that?

i am going to compile a few quot that i think is funny.. recently on the radio... but not sure if its hitz.fm or Fly.fm.but i am sure that some of you might not even noticed.

DJ: adam how has your life change since american idol?

adam : my life has changed 360 degree since the american idol.

me - huh???? do you know that turning 360 degree is like not turning at all? ..i guess you did not do your math homework.

next....

from S club 7 song.

i never had a dream come true,
till the day that i find you,

me - really??? that bad? what a loser...

continuing... this is a very new song and i kind of like it at the moment . but something just doesn't sound right.

Its a quarter after one im a little drunk and I need you now

girl if you are drunk, what you need is to be sober.

the next quot however comes from a DJ about Fergie and her big girl don't cry song.

"Fergie must have written the song about fat girls."

i don't like the comment but he has a point. there is more actually but i don't remember.

not sure.

i am not sure about a lot of things, however i am sure that i am me. i experimented on a lot of stuff and hobbies, but i find myself confused along the way. The good thing about being unsure is that because you have something important that you cared about so it makes things complicated but the bad thing is that you might spend to much time thinking about it. (i am not making sense ei? bear with me its the fever talking)

How did all great people become great? When did they decide to be great? do they face the same problem? i linger to this fact that it makes me sick (the fact that i am still feverish doesn't really help much)

could it be that there is a more simple answer that i could be missing? i'm terrible when i am not well.

i am feeling heat at the moment, my body is like on fire but i just wouldn't sweat. i told my mum about it and she says its call "demam" My mum sense of humor is really getting on my nervous. Dad on the other hand had to be busy with work.

Not to worry though, i can take care of myself. i am currently taking a lot of sleep and rest but unsure of how much i should be taking (hence the unsure title). I felt asleep while reading just now and when i woke up it was already dark. Don't laugh but i thought it was already Sunday morning.

Am i becoming crazy?

I heard from a friend that if you sleep in the evening for 40 days you'll end up becoming insane.

i hope its not true but if it is, i hope we can still be friends. :P

how rare is it?

have you ever wonder how rare it is to meet someone who you can just click? i find it hard to believe myself. Last night you were a nobody today its like we have known each other for a while.

i guess it is true that fate meet us , but to cling on each other we choose . Maybe its not really fate, i think that when we are not caught up with messy things we see things clearly as it is. The fact is everyone is special in his own marvelous way.

don't ever think that you are not special, trust and believe in yourself.

feeling much better.

i fell asleep from 6.30 pm. nothing much i could do with the back pain. i woke up at 1130 pm still feeling stiff on my back but much better now. Dad had been worried about it. Mum however had been teasing me for not being fit.

Mum was right though. lack fitness

hmmm....

feeling sleepy again. just glad that i'm on holiday. i'm feeling for sushi and wasabi all the sudden. maybe tomorrow.

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Began

We began simple,
twisted along the way,
grew up,
by following or leading.

we began with fairy tales,
hit by reality,
made promises and broken some,
intentionally or accidentally.

we began as a baby,
grew taller,
older and older,
wonder how did we get here.

we began with nothing,
get almost everything,
and then we realise,
we will lose everything.

we began as alone,
then we are two or three,
but we shall not forget,
we will be one again.

we began by fate,
we try and we strive,
soon to know,
that we choose how we end.

back pain.

waking up with a back pain is not something you look forward to. Hard work at aunt house has finally caught me. i'm going to stay home today. Maybe put some ice on my back?

Pain...pain...

its been a while since i did exercise. weight lifting ? i'm not build for it. I have to share with you that the past few days, i have been busy with helping my aunt sorting books. i know that aunt have a lot of books, but do you know that if we pile the books up together, they could actually take space of a master bedroom? i'm not even close to exaggerating.

Only A Cunning Person Would Know Another Cunning Person?

when i posted about my mum being cunning with me, a friend told me that only a cunning will know another cunning. "-___- i guess the shoe does fit in a way. but i have a sense that knows other people's design or motive.

some people say we shouldn't judge a book by its cover but i could tell. maybe i am just plain ignorance but i have a soft spot in my heart to let them redeem themselves. a fool to some people i am but its how i roll.

i don't think anyone is perfect, i believe for you to get back in someones good grace, you have to prove worthy.

Coming back to the main topic. i am trying to read between the line. trying to understand could it be possible that you are as cunning to know another? does it apply to other characteristic of personality? how about being rude? does knowing a rude person makes you one of them? perhaps the real moral is that you have to be cunning in a sense so that you can be aware of other people being cunning as well.

i have heard from a friend that accountancy would have to learn how to fraud an account for them to sift through a pile of accountancy sheet for perpetrators. perhaps the concept was taken from the saying. really? i'm as gray as you are.

maybe its also a lesson that we shouldn't judge people as we will be judging ourselves as well.

perseverance

An ambition is only a dream if there is no perseverance. A book will not be a book without perseverance of a writer. A house would only be a plan if developers do not finish the job.

How can we tell if someone is serious to be an achiever? As Einstein spoke of his famous quote

"genius is one percent talent and ninety nine percent hardwork"

We don't have to be a rocket scientist to understand this but yet many choose otherwise.i have seen many of my friends who have passion for music, they by themselves managed to be good with playing an instrument and some could even play more than one.

Extraordinary i must admit, but sadly many have given up. i was touched by a few symphony lately; symphony No. 9 Largo, Fantasia and the swan . Magically i was moved by the mood of the song. all the musician involved on the production of those song work their asses to make it happen.

i don't have talent for music, but i do know i enjoy listening to good stuff. Currently listening to Toreador. One day my writing will be as good as this song... ooowyeaa!

Dad...crying?

As we watch the Chelsea vs Liverpool game, i can not stop to notice that dad almost cried when Drogba scored a goal. i was surprised as you are. To be frank i never knew a guy like my dad would shed tears for sport ,he was so happy to see his favourite team win the match. Its been a while for Chelsea to be in this standing.

The game with Liverpool was a 50-50, my brother (called from UK) was saying that Liverpool would have better chance to win thus making opportunity for Man u to remain number one on the league table. But big brother assumption fail as Drogba proves him wrong.

Perhaps dad could imagine how big brother would react when he sees Chelsea on top again. My brother has always been a Man U fan. He and dad would bet on who would win but they end up arguing which team is better. I on the other hand have no idea which is better. But when the first goal hit Liverpool, a sense of satisfied filled within me. It even felt like a victory for me.

i doubt though that i would cry for Chelsea, what can i say, i'm only a girl at the end of the day.

My estacy.....

i know that i have been wanting people to read my blog... but i never hope that it would be this cool.. when you can tell how many people is on your blog currently reading....

it felt like i was using estacy (not saying that i have tried it.. daaaa...... its just an expression ) when i saw this .... for a noob ... this is consider as cool...

you guys must be like... its not like its a hundred , its three including you -______-"

but i'm still happy having the crowd.. hehehehhe


peace you all...

1st May... Date?

i am going out on a date. It has been years that I realised that that person existed. Fate have meet us many times but i have never noticed that person's worthiness .That person was indeed interesting.

We have finally meet. I should have dated that person long ago. we have been introduced but we never really spend time to click. i have never given that person a chance. A chance for me to fall for that person. i never really been fair to that person.

i was busy with my schedule but that person has never given up on me. that person has never say no when i want that person to accompany me.

that person is so generous. that person has promised to take me to places that i may never afford. i am satisfied and glad.

i know that i could never be trapped with that person around me. that person will follow me wherever i want that person to follow.

aren't i lucky???



want to know who that person is?


that person is a book by jane austen...


:P